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Newest cover for you viewing pleasure, lovelies.

Yes, I realize I was hidin' behind the mic. Had to record in cramped space and had muchos trouble getting any angle that you could see my face. Hehe.

My newest version of "Say It's Possible" originally by the amazingly beautiful, talented, and kind Terra Naomi

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This bliss is a temporary state
And you know it's fading rapidly
So take my words and hold them close
Before I completely fade away
I'm the memory you can't remember
But someday I knew I would remind you
So if you want I'll take a chance and
We'll see where we are come morning

It's such a shame
We forget what really matters
Who's to blame
For all of our many regrets

Sometimes when I stop to think
I realize what a big mistake it was
To think I was ready to let it go
When I should have held you tighter to me
And it's so complicated because
that’s the way you and I made it
I guess this time we'll think things through
Before the sun rises come morning

It's such a shame
We forget what really matters
Who's to blame
For all of our many regrets

These thoughts never change
The memory won't fade
This heart never changes
Even when everything else around does
These thoughts never change
Your memory won't fade
Just give me time to explain
To make it okay again

I fell down and felt a little pain
But at least I could feel something
And it was worth every scrape
To know that I was not alone
I told you that I knew exactly how
We'd both end up right back here
At the spot where things changed
And there never was a morning

What was the one thing that you wanted badly that made you do something ridiculous? 
Submitted by estell.

Oh my...what a fabulous question! Well, actually, I can't think of anything incredibly exciting, but one thing does come to mind.

Last year I desperately wanted to be in a musical. It was a paid acting job (and I would've made some sweet mula had I gotten the part) and it would have been wonderful. For the audition everyone was required to prepare a song and monologue that fit into 90 seconds.

For my monologue I chose a piece from Angels in America. Harpers speech at the very end. For my song, "Once Upon a December" from the movie Anastasia.  I spent two weeks working on my pieces, highly anticipating the nerve wrecking audition.

What makes these auditions so horrifying is the way it's all set up. You're on this massive stage with the hot stage lights beaming down on you so unforgivably and there are three 'judges' waaaaaaaaayyyy out in the audience seated at a little table with a tiny light on. Since the house lights are down you can only make out there shapes, but you can't really see who they are.

So, back to my story...I spent two weeks preparing like crazy and two days before the audition I came down with a dreadful cold. I felt my throat start to get sore and my lungs becoming tight and I knew what was going to happen. By the very next day I had completely lost my voice, I could barely speak let alone sing. I spent the entire day chugging warm tea with honey and lemon, breathing in steam, downing honey straight from the bottle, cough drops...everything I could think of, but nothing seemed to help.

The day of the audition arrived and I wasn't doing much better. My nose was red and my eyes were puffy. I completely looked and felt a mess. I tried to warm up my voice, but it just wasn't having it, so I just kept myself from talking all day in hopes that by the time it came for me to audition my voice would be miraculously healed. Sadly, I had no such luck.

I got out on stage and thankfully I had enough of my voice to deliver my monologue, which I remember most of, but when it came time for the song I opened my mouth, started to sing and the most obnoxious sounds I have EVER heard began to pour out. It was humiliating. My voice cracked, squeaked, broke and just...it made the most hideous sounds imaginable. I had no idea my voice could sound so...frightening. Anyway, it was, at the time, the most humiliating moment of my life.

I came home and curled up into a little ball, sobbing. I was so frustrated. I'd been waiting for years to finally audition for this production company and I felt I'd completely blown my audition. While I was in my darkened room crying, my mother walked in with the phone in her hand, and when I answered it was the theater company asking me to come back the next day for callbacks. I was completely in shock.

I completely put myself out there....humiliated myself...and it paid off!!!

Sadly, because I seriously lack in dancing skills, I wasn't cast, but it was well worth it. I learned a great deal from that experience and now I'm pretty fearless when it comes to auditions. If I managed to overcome my fear of that, I feel like I can do just about anything!

 I think singing with no voice, and dancing with no dance talent is pretty ridiculous, don't you?